5 Stupid AF things I did (& what I learnt)

Growing up, let’s just say I was the rebel- and obviously that meant I got myself into a fair share of trouble. From jumping over my gate for nightly escapades, partying in clubs where I was underage, getting bad drunk and So. Much. More. Looking back now, I could kick myself because not only were those things dangerous and totally unnecessary, it just wasn’t worth what came after aka a load of self regret, wishing that didn’t happen and the greatest question of all, “why the F did I do that?”

The good news? I am SO over those years and lucky for you, I gained some hard wisdom that I’m gonna share today with the top 5 stupid things I did & the lessons I learned. And obviously my cute outfit details as well. 

Right now I am uber obsessed with this shade of green & peasant dresses. The cinched waist is very flattering to all body types. I love super high heels with this look and since I can’t wear makeup right now, hats are what I live in. All the details about this outfit is below.

P.S. The string you see around my neck is the part of the dress that you’re supposed to tie in a bow, but this was my personal take on it, and it looked like a fun choker. 

1. Got a tattoo- with two needles and ink 

On my left wrist, there’s an almost faded word: KARMA. It was to remind me of the ancient law- what goes around comes around. Sure, the theory of wanting it wasn’t in itself bad. But having a guy sneak over to my house to stab my wrist a thousand times with two needles and a pot of ink, maybe wasn’t the best approach. Instead of a cute tattoo, I now have a greenish looking one with a crooked K, piece of the M missing and two A’s that are falling over themselves.

Andddd since my work sometimes calls for cute swatches, I can’t ever use my left hand in pictures and seeing that I’m right handed, this is clearly a problem. 

The lesson: 

Don’t rush into anything permanent on your body- especially like a tattoo that you can’t just take off and put back on at your whim and fancy. If you want a tattoo, be 10000000000000% sure that you want it. Choose your words/drawing wisely. Remember that you’re going to change as a person and the 15 year old you won’t be the same as the 21 year old you. You will change over the years and your love for your tattoo might fade. Be sure that your future job won’t be affected and for God’s sake, go by a professional. 

2. Pierce my belly button

I have about 9 piercings and this particular one may not have ended up in this category but it so happens that out of all the people in the world to get a piercing here, mine was the lucky one that my body rejected. No really, my body literally rejected it. Who the hell could have thought that could happen?! Out of all the research that I did prior to getting it, no where did anyone say, oh BTW there’s a possibility that your body could reject your piercing and fall right off out. 

Of course, me being me, that’s exactly what happened. I didn’t notice it until it was too late, but the steal bar slowly pushed it’s way out of my belly until the piercing literally just fell out onto the floor. It didn’t hurt or anything- it literally just fell out, leaving no piercing hole or anything. It legit was as if I never got a piercing LOL. Sure it’s funny now but like geeze, had I known it was going to happen I would have saved a scar and a ton of pain from that piercing. 

The Lesson: 

Even though a piercing is easy to come out if you’re not in love with it anymore- which is what I did to all but 2 piercings- it could leave not so pleasant marks especially if it gets infected or rejected by your body. Do all your research and be aware during the healing process of signs that something just isn’t right. 

3. Been That Drunk Girl 

A night of not knowing my alcohol limit (very low btw) led to me first reaching a giggling state where I peed on the floor of a toilet thinking it was the greatest joke of all,  and then rapidly to a state of being hard core drunk. I threw up on myself on the way back home and stayed with my vomit covered hair and clothes (GROSS I KNOW) for the entire 30 min trip back home because I was too drunk to say something. When I finally got back home, I rolled out of the car and threw my life up on the grass. That feeling was undoubtedly one of the worst feelings I ever felt. My friend had to acutally lift me up because I couldn’t walk, and then throw me in an icy shower to try to sober me up.

The Lesson:

I HATE being drunk. I never wanted to be that girl again. When you go out, people might try to make you think that it’s cool to drink and tbh being “drunk” is often never depicted in the way that it truly feels. Your head feels like it will split, your chest hurts because you threw up so much and you feel completely out of control because your body doesn’t do what you want it to do. Since that happened I don’t drink because I just really don’t want too.

There’s nothing to be ashamed of by saying NO. Sure, people might think that you’re a bitch or “too good” to drink but YOU ARE. You’re too good to get wasted, not know who the F you are, throw up on yourself and be “That Drunk Girl”. Not to mention the last thing you want is to make some serious mistakes because you’re not in control of yourself. 

I honestly don’t give two Fs about who thinks what about me when I say no to a drink. I know myself and I know the way I want to feel. Knowing who you are and what your limits are doesn’t make you less of a person. It makes you better than everyone else who does things just because they think it’s socially acceptable.

4. Side Chick 

Ugh this was by far the stupidest thing I ever did. It all started off being platonic and one thing led to the next and I was foolishly convinced that he’ll leave his gf. I fell for him in a sick twisted kind of destructive love that did nothing for me. Thankfully, I eventually snapped out of my bs stupor and left his ass.

The Lesson: 

Just don’t get involved with anyone who’s in a relationship. Always remember that cheaters don’t change. If he cheated on her for you, don’t be naïve to think that he won’t cheat on you for someone else. Being the side chick is nothing but broken promises and an empty future. Trust me- avoid the unnecessary heartbreak, drama & regret. Remember that you deserve someone who would put you first and make you a priority. Someone who would choose you and will always choose you.

5. Not waited

When you’re growing up, you have the wildest fantasy that everything is running away from you. Sometimes, if you’re like the old me, you think you have to rush into destructive relationships and do wild things just for the fun of it. But not waiting for the right person or the right moment will leave you with regret later on in your life. Looking back, I really wished that I waited for the people who deserved my time and who deserved me. 

The Lesson:

As I got older, I realized that spending time with the wrong people who would eventually lead me down bad paths could have all been avoided had I not just rushed into things. The adrenaline and the feeling that you have to do something for “the rush” will eventually fade if you just close your eyes and take some time to think about what you’re going to do. 

One day, there would be people in your life who you wished you could share special moments with. “Firsts” that you would want to share with someone, but that which you already squandered. It happens to the best of us, but by taking a moment to realize the value of yourself and how much you deserve, you can make choices that would lead to a future that you truly love. 

Peasant dresses I love: 

Forever 21 Floral Self-Tie Peasant Dress |Forever 21 Belted Sunflower Peasant Dress | Azbro Embroidery Floral Peasant Dress | Jaxe & Grace Boho Peasant Dress | Topshop Grecian Embroidered Peasant Dress | Classic Paper Doll Mandala Print Peasant Dress 

Shoes: 

Forever 21 Faux Suede Open-Toe Bootie | Forever 21 Faux Suede Ankle Booties | Nine West Levona Peep Toe Bootie | Go Jane Three Pointer Elastic Strap Booties

Hat:

Forever 21 Faux Suede Banded Wool Hat | Nordstrom Hinge Floppy Hat | America Apparel Wool Floppy Hat |